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Friday, February 22, 2013

healing

a strategy i've experienced in partner stretching to deepen and expand your muscle capacity, and to assist in letting go, is to resist. push against your partner and when you let go, your body will let go further than when your started, while your partner keeps a constant pressure. this is ideal for the inner thigh, and quads. long lean grounding muscles that thrive on flexibility.

resistance is my m.o. i find my art builds clarity when i build strict structures that I take apart. I find that my personality enjoys a fight. reaching my best self with healthy doses of fair game, sport like competition.

when i am in a place that pushes me to be my best self, i know there is something right. I felt like i was there, and recently. but i felt, like maybe this self wasnt even  being look at or appreciated by the community I was in. There was some missing link. Some disconnect, between being and fully experiencing this best self. i am looking to draw the connections. When advancing, I need to make sure the chosen community I am within is supportive. see's my growth as positive, vs threatening change.

I need to let go of the clothes that dont fit, that feel rough. of things that dont fit me, or suit me. of people the same. Letting go is hard. Often times, in my process of letting go I bring in new things. The feeling of less feels scary. i want to have choices, or something available. But too much also means things are in the way, and less available. I am not using all of it. I want to work on keeping just what I need. letting go of my mode of excess. letting go of my fear of not having, or being deprived. letting in joy in place of fear. pleasure in place of pains memory.